Day 30 – One last moment
It was almost a year ago. I was sitting in my bedroom in my cousin when I realized; In that way, I’m normal. Probably. And it turns out I was.
Day 29 – Your aspirations
All that Sims bullshit I guess. Succeed, get married, be happy. If I’m completely loaded I’m surrogating a baby. I don’t want no human being busting out my vag.
Day 28 – Something that you miss
I miss a fuckton of things, but I’ll have to name just one I suppose. I miss being able to have fun and feel alive so easily. Being first to the swings at recess and going to the pool and playing hide and seek and tag and all that shit. Not anymore. Not unless I’m high out of my miiind.
I was thinking about back when I used to live with my parents. Every Saturday I’d have to stay home with my grams and my sister because my mum was out, and every Saturday I would buy a sub from Subway and bring it home. I would smoke my weed in my room and then fill the tub and smoke more weed and eat my sub. Right there in the tub. I’d play Explosions in the Sky and eat...
Day 27 – Your favorite place
I don’t have a favourite place, really. Where I want to be depends on how I feel and who I’m with. I like lying in the grass as the sun goes down and breathing in the smell of life. Sometimes, my favourite place to be is at home. Other times, I like to go to Hotbox cafe and listen to jokes and get high with my buddies. One of my favourite places actually is my friend Stef’s...
Day 26 – Your fears
I am afraid of ultimately becoming a failure. Of dying. Growing old, becoming senile, and then dying. I’m afraid of being alone for the rest of my life, without love. I’m afraid of the dark. Of vomiting. Of judgement. I’m afraid of losing everything.
Day 24 – Something that makes you cry Feeling lonely gets me really depressed sometimes, and I cry. Day 25 – A first The first time I ever did mushrooms was one of the best days of my life. That, and the last time I did mushrooms. It was at the start of the summer. It was the most enlightening and humbling experiences of my life. My eyes have been opened and it has changed me forever.
Day 23 – Something that makes you feel better
Alex makes me feel better.